peeps

with life of late i have started to realize something. that i have some good people in my life - really good. people and relationships that i have grown to love and respect beyond all measures. people that i would not trade for anything. people who listen, support and love me. despite my flaws.

with all the uncertainty of the near future - combined with some "heightened emotions" - i find myself feeling a plethora of things. melancholy being the gentlest of the brood. sad of our distances. and perhaps even sadder for the larger stretch of miles that may be upon us.

i am trying to be a realist and acknowledge that the fact of us being closer than further is slim. not impossible. but not necessarily in our foreground. which makes me pine. as it would be nice to have easy accessibility to all of these people. to call upon them with quick action, as oppose to where i currently am.

i don't feel it very often but it can feels like isolation. lonely. i am trying to make a valiant effort in using good memories and thoughts to carry me over the harder times. frankly, it is either working or i have come to realize that having the moments to dwell in non productive time is just not an option.


i suppose what i need to remember is that even if my physical distance is to grow from my group that our relationships will still prevail. i do not see myself waking up one morning and that they would be done, erased. i believe that anyone that wanted to choose that route/excuse already has. i would like to continue to believe that my noes and sense of smell are pretty good at sniffing out what has perished.

i do hope that i can continue to be successful with my continued effort in celebrating each of my peeps. to let them know how i feel about them. to remind them that they are never far from my heart. my mind. my spirit.

that they are each an elegant pair, well broken in, comfortable at any time.