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disappointmet

the feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one's hopes or expectations

Despite everything I suppose I thought that you would come through or in the least be honest with me. It feels as though my place is to sit here, on the bench, and wait until you decide you can use me for your benefit. I had hoped that the issues that were holding you back, could be benched for the day. If feels again as if I have been crushed. And I feel ridiculous for it. I just wish you had been honest with me - rather then string me along to a disappointing finish.

What I have come to realize is that this is not unusual behavior for you. That this past year has had me feeling this way more times then not. It is a sad day when you realize that you can not count on a relationship anymore. But perhaps also a good day for this realization is what you need.

I cannot change the person you are, this I understand. What I need to do is change how you fit into my life.