When one lives life open to opportunity you spend much time in the space of "Nothing is definite. Nothing is permanent. " Because I believe in being open to life's possibilities, in taking chances when others might not & of taking the leap and closing my eyes; I have to be okay with change. Of others constant concerns about my lack of concern over the future. Of being optimistic.
I don't think many people believe in me, or my process. And because they are not willing to say "what if..." I must be crazy to do so.
We choose to have 2 open doors in life, which can create greyness. The unknown. And because of this perhaps is why I define myself personally, in my decisions and outlooks, with black and white. I understand some may see this as contradictory, which I understand, but by choosing this way I believe I am more open to experiences and life.
I may have times that are trying, where I yearn to have normalcy. Correction - Where I yearn for familiarity. But I would never trade having that for what we have here. What we have created and what is still in our hands waiting for us to make something of it. There is always email, phones, train tickets and airplanes. But there is not always opportunity.
Recently thrown into our plan is the thinking and the decision process becoming centered around other little people. We have had to acknowledge the need to consider decisions that will benefit their person, their opportunity, rather then necessarily my urban desire. The interesting moment was when we realized that we were already taking into account theses little things and alternating how we think or feel without even discussing it. Growing up being the correct phrase here.We don't have a definite decision of where we are going or that picturesque photo montage playing on a loop. However, we do know that something has to give.
I am as much anxious as I am excited for the road ahead. Of what we are building. I do see good at the end, over the bumps and patches of fog.
I don't think many people believe in me, or my process. And because they are not willing to say "what if..." I must be crazy to do so.
We choose to have 2 open doors in life, which can create greyness. The unknown. And because of this perhaps is why I define myself personally, in my decisions and outlooks, with black and white. I understand some may see this as contradictory, which I understand, but by choosing this way I believe I am more open to experiences and life.
I may have times that are trying, where I yearn to have normalcy. Correction - Where I yearn for familiarity. But I would never trade having that for what we have here. What we have created and what is still in our hands waiting for us to make something of it. There is always email, phones, train tickets and airplanes. But there is not always opportunity.
Recently thrown into our plan is the thinking and the decision process becoming centered around other little people. We have had to acknowledge the need to consider decisions that will benefit their person, their opportunity, rather then necessarily my urban desire. The interesting moment was when we realized that we were already taking into account theses little things and alternating how we think or feel without even discussing it. Growing up being the correct phrase here.We don't have a definite decision of where we are going or that picturesque photo montage playing on a loop. However, we do know that something has to give.
I am as much anxious as I am excited for the road ahead. Of what we are building. I do see good at the end, over the bumps and patches of fog.
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