An Original

What is the point of being here? What is it that I want from here? And if it is just for me then why here, why not just on black and white pages?  When discussing "online writing" with a friend she shared a valid point  "when I start feeling like I have to write, the pressure to create something, it takes the fun out of it. "

I have personal reservations. Opinions of what this should be. And definitely what I don't want it to be.  The inundation of martyr pages online is maddening. Why are so many people obsessed with sharing nonsense, asking people to comment and support them on their ridiculousness. They use this forum as a way to make themselves feel better, valid, important.  People writing because they feel bad or guilty about their own choices. And people highlighting them, feeding the cycle. Enabling them.

I can not handle it.

I have some instinctual drive to write here, to write things out and then share them with others. But I also struggle with where I want it to go. What I want it to be about or not about.

Have patience with me as I evaluate. As I try to find the answers. I know they are here somewhere. I know that I am plenty capable of finding them. Making this where I want to be.